15,JANUARY,1987;TO MY BELOVED FRIEND

THIS IS FOR ŞEYMA from

good intention equals nothing

I don’t know how i should start my words and i cannot remember how many times i have tried to write sth about u more awesome than those which have been written for ur lovable heart untill now. But i am so inskillful that i cannot find any words to define ur value for me believe me i cannot be successful even in Turkish

It is always difficult to say sth or write sth about our loves, our beloved ones coz i am afraid that any words will be inadequate to pour out my feelings, any languages haven’t had the word yet i wanna use for u

But i should admit some truhts about our friendship((:

I get angry with u
When u cry
When u make urself unhappy
When u feel lonely (i am still alive don’t worry leaving u alone is not among my future plans((:
When u lose ur hopes and ur beautiful eyes look hopelessly
When u don’t eat enough actually everytime
And so onnn

I get angry with myself
Why???
Coz i cannot be with u for drying ur weeps when u cry or cannot offer a big hug
Coz i let u feel lonely eventhough i am ur friend
Coz i cannot enable u to view the life with a hope

I wanna see u roll up with laughters not just smile can u do it for me????

This is my little present for u i know it is not awesome but not so bad((:

U r my beloved friend, actually more than a friend, u are my family
I cannot promise u to be with u forever but i can promise and make u sure that i will always be ur friend and will be ready for sharing ur feelings even if i am far away from u

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE
Thanks for being one of the most important parts of my life

I wish i could present u sth more valuable

p.s:loveeee uuuu and misss u honey